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Friday, March 30th, 2007
11:37 am	some upward progress... Ok well its been along time since I wrote but hey, what can I say not much has changed - well not that I wanted to bore people with... first off some basic highlights and lowlights over the past couple months... got the bathroom remodeled - turned out great and its so much nicer in there now.... as soon as that was done though the sewer drain under the fron tlawn to the street had to be replaced (expensive) so now the front lawn needs some drastic repair... tilled it sto smooth it out a bit but it needs to be rolled nad reseeded now... I'll get to that soon I hope.. We put dad's land up for sale.. had a few quick bids but nothing we got too excited about... hope it sells fast cause here's why.... I bet the farm (or property so to speak) on the chance it sells fast and I bought a popup camper... if the land sells fast I can turn around and pay that off relatively fast if not I might be in trouble in a couple months.... We are looking forward to camping in the new popup and already have a few long weekends planned out.... hope things go well.. tomorrow Im headed to dad's to pack more stuff in boxes so that people looking at the place can look at it better... then home to go to the Badits game... well, lunch will be here shortly so I better go... keep your fingers crossed that things get better as so far 07 hasnt been all that great - but I can fix that if I just get a couple breaks... keep praying for me and my family! Current Mood: hopeful (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, January 26th, 2007
1:15 pm	2 yrs... Well - this sunday marks 2 years since my dad passed and life hasn't gotten any easier since then... his land is still unresolved and the stress in my life is killing me and if I don't get some relief quick I will be with him sooner than I expect.... Things in my life are very dificult right now but I am trying to fight to survive ... truth is that the world is probably better off without me anyway... only one that would miss me is my son I think - everyone else would forget me in a very short time I believe.... Because of my problems and my attitude lately, I don't seem to bring any joy to anyone anymore - not even my son - who used to look forward to every moment with me - now I seem just another stop in his day lately... and he's only 7.... All I know is that if things don't get resolved soon I'll go mad... family friends work - none of it is fun anymore... hell I can't even get any fun online anymore... guess I'm not even appealing to some of the desperate people out there...lol Well noone reads this but if anyone does, keep me in your thoughts for a positive turnaround ok? and feel free to contact me - these days I could use some more friends.... (Comment on this)
Monday, December 4th, 2006
3:49 pm	it's my birthday... It's my birthday, got my brakes fixed, got my teeth pulled, got no money now....LOL yep its true - today is my 37th - last week I got hit like a grown up with expenses... - had to have my brakes fixed as they failed on me a couple times... then the next day had 2 teeth pulled with plenty more dental work needed.... so now I'm broke - even more so than I was 10 days ago... didn't think I could get much deeper... Oh well... I'll keep my trust in God and I know things will be ok.... By the way, thanks to Amanda S for letting me vent a bit over the past few weeks... I know she has her own problems but she still will listen to me as well! God Bless her too! She's an amazing woman! Til next time... and no... no big plans for the bday today.. jus tgonna have a nice dinner and veg I think.... no money to go out anyway...lol CYA! (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 2nd, 2006
2:54 pm	long time away... Hello, I know long time since I posted - what does it matter really - noone reads this but me anyway.... Well the past 45 days or so haven't really had too much excitement so I haven't had much to post anyway BUT - a few weeks ago 10/13/06 we did have a freak snowstorm that knocked over trees and pulled power, cable and phone lines down for nearly half a million people in this area... took 3 days to get power back to us but overal it took 11 days to get everyone back up and running properly.. we just got out phone line back on the house 3 days ago.... that will be a storm to remember... I'll always remember lugging trees and dodging power lines and tress on strees for days after the storm... Overall, life has been pretty routine lately.. ups and downs... busy but nothing exciting. Due to the lack of exercise and sexercise...lately. I am gaining weight and need to get back on the treadmill again soon.... I hope to start a pretty good schedule for it next week... I'd like to lose about 20 lbs so I can feel less sluggish and less tired all the time.. wish me luck! Til next time.... Current Mood: sleepy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, September 18th, 2006
10:00 am	big step... Well it was a good weekend overall and I am very happy to take it as it seems things are often more disappointing lately than they are exciting... so with that said I will accept the very good weekend happily and be grateful for it. Saturday morning started out with my son's cub scout event at a local nature park. He got to make plaster casts of deer tracks, decorated a walking stick, went for a hike around the park, and saw several displays of animals etc... he had a really good time as did I... Later in the day we played games then went to play mini golf then had a camp fire in my yard to close the night - but the best part was still to come. When it was time to go to bed he and I made a deal that he would sleep in his room by himself (as he is afraid of sleeping at my house (or anywhere) without me or his mom near him). If he slept all the way through the night without me right next to him I'd buy him a new xbox game. We have tried this beofe and half way he usually comes to me or his mom (as she refuses to force him to learn to slepp on his own - part of the MANY issues I have with the way she raises him). Anyway, he made it all the way this time - first time ever so sunday we got up had our sunday morning breakfast made by yours truly and then went to buya game and watch the Bills victory over the hated Dolphins.... So yes it was a good weekend overall and I hope to have more like that soon! Pray that I will have the strength needed to keep teaching him and not "parenting" him so much. I want him to learn why things are to be done ways and not just parent him - as teaching why is better than punishing if it can be done.. (sometimes punishing is all thats left though - as we all know...lol). Later! Current Mood: hopeful (Comment on this)
Friday, September 15th, 2006
10:08 am	so much for wishing for good things... Well I had my brakes looked at and it's FAR BEYOND REALITY in what I can afford so I don't know what to do anymore... I cannot understand why I can't get out of this hole. I've tried everything short of selling my body for sex (which we all know will not make me a dime...lol). I got nothing left to sell and I have cut out most of my vices (including concerts and lunches most days)... Wanna know what pisses me off? My boss has to flaunt the fact that he just bought a new bike to go cycling with that cost $2000 (yes 2 thousand) and he paid cash for it - while I sit here with brakes that could fail any day and no food - yet he still likes to tell me about that damn bike... like I care!!! UGHHHH I'm close to giving up... Current Mood: depressed (Comment on this)
Thursday, September 14th, 2006
10:54 am	not much new... Well not much exciting has passed lately exceot for the fact my son started in Cub Scouts last night. It waws his first meeting and I think lathough he was a bit quiet and hesitant that he enjoyed it. We have a ure park visit this weekend and that ought to be fun. He did have an event a few weeks ago that was to be his first event but due to my ex mixing up all directions and (as usual) failing to get up the most updated info, we missed it but not for lack of trying. He was supposed to enter a space rocket derby that he made out of balsa wood and we drove around for an hour at a place we were told it was only to find out the next day that it had been moved and we weren't told... he was sad but he knows I tried my hardest to get us there. Anyway, on a darker side - I have to get my brakes on my car looked at tonight... keep your fingers crossed that it costs under $300 as thats all I got left on my credit card... without the fix my car wont pass inspection so who knows... Well I gotta run - busy day here! Believe a better day is coming! (Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 6th, 2006
9:13 am	a new school year... Well I took my son to school for the first day of the new year this morning and I have to say again he makes me proud. No more tears, no more fighting - he just went to school and was strong. What makes me proud so much is that he started in a brand new school for 2nd grade today and I know that has to be tough on him. It always was for me when I switched schools but as I said - he handled it very well. My hopes are that he makes new friends fast and adapts well as he will also be moving into a new house soon. I won't even go there as I could write 2 pages on how that upsets me but I am only his father so what does it matter what my opinion is right? Anyway, he is growing up fast and I am getting old faster... I hope to have another someday soon but right now I only see the chances of that fading fast... who knows... maybe someday soon something will change that will make that possible... Take care and God Bless us all! (Comment on this)
Monday, August 21st, 2006
9:49 am	failed attempt at raising cash... Hey there! Well just wanted to vent some frustrations here today at my failed attempt of raising cash. My mom held a yard sale this past weekend and out of everything I had out for sale, I only made about $25. I had star wars collectables, electronic stuff, pc stuff and hardly anything sold even though it was marked dirt cheap. Guess I have to put it on ebay now ... I wanted to avoid that due to their rising fees but guess I don;t have much choice now... Oh well.. .hopefully things will be ok financially soon.... Current Mood: disappointed (Comment on this)
Friday, August 4th, 2006
10:46 am	time for some praise OK - all summer I've been waiting for this - it starts sundy - Kingdom Bound at Darien lake. Hopefully its good weather, good music, good speakers and good feelings all around. I am looking forward to this more than most of the bands I go to see - partly because I've never seen any of these bands live and partly cause I just need to be in this kind of atmosphere again. My faith and hope have fallen to all time lows over the past 18 months and I am truly hoping that this helps me improve my life in one way or another... and if not, at least I get to hear some good uplifting music.... Sunday - MercyMe and The Afters, Monday Casting Crowns and Audio Adrenaline, Tuesday Third Day and Kutless - and maybe just maybe (if I can last that long) - Wednesday Newsboys and Rebecca St James.... Wish me luck and also wish me the return of my faith and hope.... Well thats it until next week! CYA! Current Mood: anxious (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 3rd, 2006
9:15 am	one down 3 more to go Well Poison and Cinderella put on a great show last night at Darien. 20 years and both bands still know how to entertain... even the opening band impressed me (endeverafter). I gotta work today and tomorrow then I go t a 5 day reprieve - I don't have to work either of my jobs any of those days so I am looking forward to it. Plue I got 2 concerts in 3 days over that spread (maybe 4 in 4 if this old man can handle it...lol). Wish me luck! (Comment on this)
Monday, July 31st, 2006
10:06 am	good and bad... Well it was a good weekend as far as enjoyment but I really seemed to have a short fuse with everyone. It was weird... one minute I was happy and having fun with my son and the next minute I was angry with him or anyone around... I think I am overdoing life a bit.. trying to hard to pack everything in and I am not enjoying the moment cause I am too worried about what still needs to be done... Oh well.. got a few concerts to go to over the next 10 days so I hope to let off some steam at those and forget about life for a couple hours each night. Upcoming shows: Poison/Cinderella, MercyMe, Casting Crowns, Third Day& Kutless Hopefully I can get some camping in sometime in August too - summer is passing quick - not alot left.... Somebody slow life down for me please?????? (Comment on this)
Monday, July 24th, 2006
8:52 am	a succesful bday party Hi - quick note to say that the bday party that we threw for my son's 7th bday yesterday (his bday is the 19th) turned out very nice and although we did not go all out (as it was just a backyard bbq) he still had a really good time and he got several nice gifts. Well - gotta get going - more to follow later this week.... (Comment on this)
Monday, July 10th, 2006
8:45 am	overall weekend grade... A minus.... Well for the first time in awhile I had a very good weekend... It started with the Sammy Hagar pre-show party village that was set up around the venue before the show. There were dunk tanks Taco Bar, Waborita Bar (bouble shot margaritas made with Cabo Wabo Tequila), karaoke bar, live music and to top it off, a beach volleyball court that featured the Hotters girls vs the Buffalo Jills (The Bills cheerleaders)... buy wait - it gets better... after a few Waboritas my friend and I even got to play beach volloeyball against the Jills.... that was so cool! After all that - there was stll a concert to watch which featured Sammy playing his solo tunes for nearly 90 mins then a short break and Michael Anthony joined him and the band for over an hour of Van Halen tunes. Saturday I had my son from early in the monring til evening then I went to see Nickelback - another great show. I have to admit that I wasn't looking forward to watching the 3 opening bands (Hinder, 3 Days Grace & Hoobastank) but they all played with energy and even sounded good - I even found myself liking a few tunes I never heard before... Sunday I got up early and spent 6 hours painting the 2nd side of my garage then I went to see Pirates of the Carib. 2 - I enjoyed that (the first was better but this one was well done as well). Certainly sets you up to look forward to #3 next summer.... I ended the night doing laundry and watching a movie on tv while I also worked on other things at the same time -- so overall the weekend was a success... few minor glithches here and there but nothing that is big enough to knock the grade down below and A- Think I need more weekends like that! Thanks for the party Sammy! You are truly the ultimate party host! (Comment on this)
Friday, July 7th, 2006
10:14 am	Finally some fun ahead.... OK so I have been working day in and day out since I got back from Vegas and its now time for a little concert fun and DAMN do I need it.. Lately, if I am not at my day job or my night job, I have been helping my brother install a central air conditioner and when not doing that I have been spending time with my son, and when not doing that I have been scraping sanding priming and painting the garage (one wall at a time)... and let me tell ya, I am wiped.... I'm burnt out and I seem to be frustrated around everyone - or maybe they are frustrated with me - who knows and who cares - now I need a cure.... So tonight I am going to go see Sammy Hagar play at Darien Lake and enjoy some of his Tequila and pre show party village.... then listen to some loud Sammy Hagar and Van Halen tunes live! Tomorrow morning it's back to the grind with painting and watching my son but tomorrow night I get another short reprieve as I am going to see Nickelback at the HSBC arena.... more loud music to listen to so I can forget about life for awhile.... Sunday it's back to the same old routine as this week has been but hey - RIGHT NOW (get the VH reference there?...lol) I am going to enjoy the few hours I got ahead.... Later all! (Comment on this)
Monday, June 26th, 2006
12:25 pm	I have returned.... Well, for 4 months I scaraped and saved and sacrificed so that I could have a few bucks to take to Vegas and now that it's past I look back and can't help but think that it was all worth it. The city itself is gorgeous. Looking around Las Vegas I can't help but wonder how much intelligence it takes to create the wonderful Hotels and buildings out there. OK given these aren't phenomena like the pyramids or stonehedge or the Roman architecture but just looking at the design of each I can't help but think about how creative one must be to make something like those structures actually work.... and I am only talking of the buildings themselves - haven't even mentioned the working water volcano, or the water fountain show at the Bellagio (for a smale of that watch the end scene of Ocean's 11) or the working pirate ship, etc etc etc etc etc etc. The inside of each hotel is a city itself for the most part. The Venetian for example has a whole concourse inside that looks like a reproduced city square in Venice complete with indoor and outdoor canals where we all took Gondola rides. Each hotel has amazing theatres and food and exhibits, displays, etc etc etc. oh yeah and casinos... LOL! I swear you could go see 3 things each day for a year and still not even scratch the surface of what's offered for entertainment - it's ever changing and growing and even though it is considered a "bad" place to many - it is turning into more of a tourist and family place (though it wil be some time yet before I take my son there - but maybe in the near future someday at the rate they are changing things). Overall we got to see the Bellagio Fountains, the Volcano, The Sirens of Treasure Island show, the moving statues and animated statues, the Gondola rides, the Titanic Exhibit (a must for history buffs like me), the Tournament of Kings (Knights and Wizards and dragons etc which I love), and even went to see La Cage.... and yes I enjoyed the show - even though it may give me nightmares now...LOL - there were many other things we did as well - too nummeroous to remember right now... I could go on and on but I won't right now. Let's just say that I had a good time and though I didn't take alot of spending money I had enough to get alot covered and even though I didn't win big I did play a little at the casinos and won some of my expense money back which will be put aside for the rest of the events this summer... oh yeah.. the weather was nice... a cool and calm 111 degrees most days....LOL - but "IT'S A DRY HEAT" right? Dry or not it was still HOT! But I like it hot so that worked for me... maybe someday I can retire to that climate cause I could breathe alot better out there than I can here... but anyway... My rating of the short trip..... 8.5 out of 10! Gotta start saving now for the next trip cause I want to see Phantom out there! I hear the production is amazing! Thanks to my mom and brother for letting us all enjoy a great 4 days! (Comment on this)
Thursday, June 8th, 2006
4:21 pm	boring update... Well not much to report lately - it's been busy though. Last weekend I took my son to watch the hydroplane races on the river - he liked those and even though it rained a bit on Saturday we still had a good weekend. Other than that I'm just working and waiting for my vacation in less than 2 weeks! Saving money aint working to my advantage but I should be good enough to enjoy it. Heck, maybe I'll even win some cash while I am there and get some real action! Well I can hope right? Guess that's all for now... off to pick up my son at my mom's - I'm sleepy today so this could be a rough night...lol! Cya! (Comment on this)
Friday, June 2nd, 2006
9:38 am	a tough end.... well it took Carolina 7 games but they defeated our Buffalo Sabres last night 4-2 to win the series and advance to the Stanley Cup. Depsite the loss of 4 - YES 4 -starting Defenseman (leaving 4 rookies who never played playoff hockey proior to this season) the Sabres nearly pulled out a miracle but alas it didn't happen - leaving Buffalo to suffer another disappointment in sports... always the brides maid...... Well there's always next year right? You know what I realized this year? Next year never comes.... and never will.... Buffalo is a cursed city and always will be... maybe cause I live here...lol Well - another bsy weekend - double jobs today and hydroplane races on the river this weekend. 19 days til vacation... anyone wanna give me money for the trip cause I ain't saving too well... lol Later! Current Mood: disappointed (Comment on this)
Monday, May 29th, 2006
8:28 am	down and nearly out Well, I will make this brief... it was a busy weekend as always but it was ok (except for the Sabres games). Friday night we watched a pathetic 4 - 0 loss by buffalo to the Hurricanes in Game 4 then Saturday I went to my sons baseball game. After that out to the campground we went and played lax, catch, fished a few times, had ice cream and played video games.... Yesterday I came home and spent about 3 hours painting the living room ceiling then rode my bike to my brothers (yes an old fart like me still can make it a couple miles to my brothers on bike...lol). It was Greg's bday so we had dinner watched the Sabres lose in OT then I came home and back at work bright and early today (but I am the ONLY human in the whole bldg today....). Well, lloks like the Sabres won't get the cup yet again.... another loss and its over... so prob tomorrow nigh tht whole ride will come to an end. Its a shame too as this team had promise and I doubt I will ever see a team that is as good as them in this city again in my life time.... The city of Buffalo should adopt a new motto - out with "An All American City" and "The City of GOod Neighbors" and in with "Always a Bride's Maid, Never a Bride"..... Current Mood: disappointed (Comment on this)
Friday, May 26th, 2006
10:58 am	Friday!!!! Well it's finally Friday after what seemed to be a 10 day workweek - well it was only 5 but seemed like 10.... it's Memorial Day weekend so that means anoterh busy one. Tonight I'm getting together with my brother to watch the Sabres whomp on Carolina, tomorrow morning CJ has a baseball game then we are heading out to go camping for a night then Sunday another Sabres game at night - Monday I work here in the morning.... So that's my life - big circles of business but you know what? I like to get busy - I mean keep busy....LOL Well let me know what going on outside my little circle! GO SABRES!!!!! GO SABRES!!!!! GO SABRES!!!!! GO SABRES!!!!! GO SABRES!!!!! GO SABRES!!!!! Current Mood: chipper (Comment on this)